Knit and Pray

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Did You Hear the Quiet?

What is good in your world?

My world has been strange and I almost forgot that the Son is shining.

Over the past three months, there have been many dark days around our house so I am determined to look up, give thanks with more gusto, and to see the sun and The Son through all the clouds.

My computer screen has been blank. My typing fingers still. For 104 days.

One hundred and four days hiding out on my hill. One hundred and four days without posting on my blog… or writing thank you notes… or sending sympathy cards… or reaching out in any way to anyone... without knitting a stitch.

And me a woman of MANY words.

My spirit was numb.

No, we’ve had no tragedy and I am grateful. In fact, my family and I are deeply, abundantly blessed. However, when I am seriously sleep deprived, my life is inside out and upside down. Actually, over the past year, my world has been upside down more often than right side up.

Do you remember the adage we drilled into our children’s minds?
 A frown is just a smile turned upside down!

Things appeared to pile up on me and my smile turned

Upside Down:
Then, the other day, I reread my “October” post.
          The one I wrote last October.
                    The one about living in the fall of my life.

I have not written a blog since.

And I thought, “Oh Dear!!” That post was followed by such a long empty silence, my readers must think, “Liz Left Life !” or worse: “Liz has nothing more to say.”
Oh my!!!!  Dear me !!!

During my silence, many of you wrote sweet, inquiring, encouraging notes for me in the comments section of the blog or via e-messages. Each word and prayer blessed me in all those places of my soul that were dry and cold. I was grateful to you. Even when I could not pen a response, I carried your words in my heart.

But I could not find my words.

Sometimes, I saw my words lurking behind the blank computer screen. Often, they danced around my head. Other times, the words just sat at a distance and teased me. I could not grab them. I could not contain them. I just stared at the blank screen.

Today I decided to take a big dose of courage and tell you that I do have MANY, MANY words left. Granted, the words don’t fall into place easily, but
 I am turning my frown - - - -RIGHTSIDE UP. . .




Today, with the psalmist, I declare, “Blessed be the LORD, because He has heard the voice of my supplication. The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped; therefore my heart exults., and with my song I shall thank Him.”
Psalm 28: 6-8 NASB

On this first day of a new month, two of my own words, written just for you, come easily and quickly:

. . . Thank You . . .

. . . for praying when I could not … for being there when I was quiet … for stopping by today… for taking time to use your words to say you care.

My prayers are flowing again.
And I am covering YOU with words to our Holy Father.

Love, Liz

9 comments:

  1. 104 days is too, too long, my friend. I'd love to see you post even a little something once a week or so. I miss your words!

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  2. Dear Megan - THANK YOU. God is soooo sweet. I left a message on your new blog then came to mine to update your blog address and found your sweet message. Crossings in Cyberspace is a good thing.

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  3. I haven't visited in such a long time, but came by today and saw this post.

    I am so glad that you were able to write after such a long time of silence! What a blessing! So glad you are doing okay!

    Blessings
    Mrs. White
    The Legacy of Home

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  4. Sometimes God goes out of His way to bless me. . . like sending you to visit on the day I finally posted. Thank You, Father and thank you, sweet reader. BTW, I LOVE the title of your place: The Legacy of Home.
    Liz

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  5. I'm so glad you're turning that frown upside down :) I'm glad to hear that you're doing okay, and that you're back! I'm glad to have been led to your blog because it looks very inspiring, and I want to check out your other sweet blogs too! I hope you continue writing on a regular basis, take care!

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  6. Welcome back sweet friend! I've missed your words of wisdom and hope!

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  7. I caught you on my Google Feed today. You posted this 2 weeks ago and I missed it. I am so glad I am here to wish a person with so much heart a Happy Valentine's Day. I need your warmth, your words and you. I'm so glad you're back here.

    Dawn

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  8. All of you young, amazing followers are SPECIAL. Thank you. Dawn, I grow reading you.
    I'm blessed to be connected to awesome bloggers and friends.
    L

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  9. Its always a comfort to read the inner thoughts of someone else, and it almost sounds like the exact thoguhts coming from your own head. Just knowing that its "ok" to go through spells of not wanting to do anything, is also a comfort. This, and all your blogs, make me smile and feel better knowing that I'm not alone in the same thoughts/ actions I chastized myself for. Thank you for being there, in so many ways, for over a year now. I appreciate your efforts, selfishly. :o)

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