Yesterday, I
experienced a sneaky presence of the Holy Spirit.
And I’m just an ordinary,
every-day, human, sinner. Who is saved by Grace.
I’m nobody important. No particular
ministry. Just a person of
HUGE
faults.
Many failures.
Awful sins.
In fact, I am absolutely and
certifiably “CHIEF of sinners.”
With massive needs.
But,
yesterday I went forward. Into a day that started with a long phone visit with
my sister-in-law, Jan and was immediately followed with a positive,
loving e-mail from a friend encouraging me in many ways.
I did not want to go forward
because my GOOD knee screamed for me to STOP. SIT. STAY.
Sorry, knee.
I had just slept for almost SEVEN straight hours. As soon as I woke and
realized WOW !!! I SLEPT, I spent the next hour telling God THANK YOU. I mean …
for this Restless Legs Junkie, seven hours is a HUGE gift; I was grateful and
determined to handle the day responsibly.
After
the first four errands, I dropped into the rocking chair on my back porch to
visit, via cell phones, with a wise friend whose heart is for helping people
find joy. I discovered a tiny smile
that enabled me to continue with my day.
About
noon, I was confronted with a hard choice: We needed groceries. Desperately. Well, energy had been
granted. *sigh* okay. Go to HEB super market.
((( Parenthesis. The last few days had been… interesting but most difficult.
Several friends are struggling with really big issues. And I have actually, specifically prayed for
them. For mercy, grace, energy, healing, energy, grace, mercy… for my friends.
Truthfully, there are SO many times I mention the needs of my friends in a
fleeting manner then hurry to scream, beg, cry out to God for…… you guessed it:
MYSELF.
I
mean, being a wife, mother, grandmother, stepmother, friend, neighbor, aunt,
sister, neighbor is downright hard and I NEED God’s instruction, leading,
wisdom, strength, mercy, Grace, and help so that I can serve. Believe me, I
require a LOT of God’s time. Just to hobble across the street requires MUCH
help and love and mercy from our Holy Father. )))
But,
for three days I literally FORGOT to pray for myself, for God’s intervention to
keep me directed, for my own understanding. I simply prayed for others. I didn’t
plan it—I’m not that disciplined or obedient. Yet, as each friend / family member came to mind, I
lifted that person up to the everlasting love of our Triune God.
I just forgot about Liz.
Okay. Fast forward to the
grocery store.
My
GOOD knee screamed, Take me home; I can’t do this; it HURTS.
Ignoring the knee, I
continued up one aisle and down the other. Then my basket LITERALLY (..accidently???
. . .) ran into the basket pushed by a friend I have not seen in about 3
months. Although lately, I’ve prayed for her a lot. ???
Oh
my!! What a joyous visit right at the soups & canned veggie aisle. I
learned specific things she deeply needs covered in prayer. AND she said
meaningful and powerful things that specifically boosted me HIGH on my rocky
journey. Just before she and I parted, another lady’s basket ran into ours.
Oops….
The
new basket belonged to a second friend who has been on my heart for reasons
unknown to me. ???
Quick
goodbye to Friend A. Happy hello to Friend B.
Another
long visit. She and I moved our baskets around cookies so other
shoppers could reach fine cheeses and we shared things of our two rocky
roads that the other did not know.
Quiet, Knee !!! There is
MORE shopping to do; Hush ! I’ll hurry.
Finally!! Made it to produce !!! Almost done. I have no memory of turning or looking up… just the
pain in my throbbing knee. But I am absolutely certain that I felt a physical please-pay-attention
“thunk” !!!
Friend C’s basket was a dozen steps away and she did not
see me. As if in slow motion, I left my basket—and my purse—next to mushrooms
and crossed the space between us in half a breath. She looked up and our
embrace was instant, loving, sincere.
Over
many years, we’ve shared more than a simple blog post can convey… life, death,
praying, doubt, fear, death, praying, and life.
And, she has been in my mind,
on my heart a lot lately. ???
In
the produce section on an ordinary September afternoon, my friend was in my
arms. We spoke of our faith—grown stronger in our aging years; of our recent
wedding anniversaries and our husbands’ increasing frailties; and of course of
our longing to see her daughter—who was taken from us several years ago in a sudden death straight
into the arms of Jesus. Finally, my wise friend shared how she has learned
that, as we look back, we see for certain that God always and absolutely
gets there first and prepares the way.
The
knee grew quiet as I bagged my own groceries for an overworked checker.
Softness cuddled my heart as I navigated crazy traffic. Amazement softened
painful thoughts when, back home, I handled first one crisis and then another.
God IS right there in the
middle of my HERE and NOW.
These three friends of mine do
not know the others. The only thing they all have in common (besides a friendship with me, thank You, Father!) is their individual love of Jesus Christ.
And.
And.
J is the first letter
of the first name of each of my three friends.
Just sayin . . . .
. . . . maybe God was
determined that I should listen and learn. J.
Liz
Moreover,
as for me, far be it from me that I should sin
against
the Lord by ceasing to pray for you;
And may all of us
fear the Lord and serve Him
faithfully
with all our hearts and
consider
how great are the things He
has done for us.
Taken from 1 Samuel 12:23-24 NIV
Running into friends like that is such a blessing, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm glad you had one good night. I'll pray there are more.